So I am on a mission to find my lost confidence, I know it is somewhere but I lost it a while back and I am having trouble finding it again...
I am a what I call a naturally shy person, it is in my make-up – passed down on my Mother’s side, but I am fed up with feeling that low level fearfulness that lays in the pit of my stomach and which shows itself in so many different forms and at times when I need the most courage.
Physical symptoms include redness of the cheeks which spreads across the nose and out to my ears, a shaky voice when speaking in front of people, loss of concentration, an inability to hear what someone is telling me even though I am desperately trying to listen, negative voices in my head telling me what I am doing wrong at that very moment – i.e. “hello, I am your negative voice and I wasn’t sure if you were aware but at this very moment you are standing funny, your voice sounds a bit shaky, that last thing you said was not funny, the person you are with is not interested in what you are saying because it is stupid...oh and you are laughing way to loud!” That voice is enough to send me packing, running back to my house with my head hung low!